The story begins where our narrator is working in a chain
coffee shop on an essay he must compose for his work. After he finishes, he realizes that he has
way too many cups of coffee and the caffeine is doing a number on his
heart. He begins to feel the frightening
and paralyzing “chill from my internal organs spreading out to my flesh and
skin”(T’ien Hsin, 1744). After our
narrator manages to get himself to a doctor’s office for some IV fluids, he
realizes how close he came to collapsing and public. He begins to obsess over what would have
happened if passer-bys had to search his
pockets, or see his underwear in the commotion that would follow an unplanned
demise. The results of his newfound
obsession may seem ridiculous but they bring to light the fear of dying
suddenly and embarrassing yourself by leaving behind secrets, whether they are
dirty underwear or an untidy and boring wallet.
Although the story’s author is a woman, the narrator of the
story drops hints that he is a gay man with a significant other through the
subtle description of a fight they had over his new undergarments he purchased
in case he were to drop dead in the middle of the street and someone had to see
his underwear, “my significant other was all but convinced I had a new love
interest, and we had a big fight over that”(T’ien-Hsin, 1749). Is our narrator’s sexuality a secret in the
sometimes stringent culture of the East?
Or is his lover the person he is trying to protect if he should die in a
way that is embarrassing?
The author’s use of first person narrative serves her
purpose of having us contemplate the narrator’s fear by putting us in his
shoes. How do we, as the reader, feel
about the prospect of leaving behind our lives exposed to be judged by our
survivors whether they be loved ones or family?
Is it better to leave behind an impersonal legacy instead of embarrassing
ourselves? The narrator purports at the
conclusion of the story “death only visits us once in our lifetime, so we
should make preparations for its arrival”(T’ien-Hsin, 1750). However, the obsession with that preparation
could rob us of a life worth living if we constantly worry about the legacy we
are leaving behind.
Works Cited:
Ed. Pucher, Martin. "Chu T'ien-Hsin, born
1958." The Norton Anthology of World Literature, 1650 to Present.
New York: W.W. Norton & Company, 2013. 1742-1744. Print.
T'ien-Hsin, Chu. "Man of La Mancha." Ed.
Pucher, Martin. The Norton Anthology of World Literature, 1650 to Present.
New York: W.W. Norton & Company, 2013. 1744-1750. Print.